Day 44: Tired

WARNING: Yo- this blog is whiny.  But I need to vent and blog it out.

I'm tired for many reasons.  Why oh why did I get up again this morning to do the 5:45AM spin class at the gym?  I know why, so I could get some physical motivation.  That class has a few uniquely energetic individuals in there and I tend to soak up their positive energy vibes to get me through a tough work day.  PCP is fine and all but for me, there's nothing like actual, in-person group workouts. 

I'm tired because spending the middle of the week to get my food prepped just sucks.  Even though my dinner's are still easy, I got to prep, cut, dice, cook for a couple hours and that's tough to do when you're an individual like me and cooking is just not fun.  I'm just trying to say I feel ya on the food prep, Ian.  I did turn on music last night, which helped but sometimes I wish I could do an easier, less time consuming option.

I'm tired because I'm sick of feeling sick to my stomach every time I get hungry.  Yes, the feeling still goes away when I eat, but when I get hungry it's just cycles of uncomfortable, churning of the stomach.  I don't like this.  No I don't like this one bit.  Another 8 days of this stuuupid feeling, blech.

I'm tired of passing up all treats that get presented to me.  Halloween is going to be another tough, emotional time.  Today there were free treats in the break room and there was one lonely brownie, able and willing to be in my stomach - "GET IN MY BELLY!" but my arm didn't reach for it.  My hand didn't pick it up.  And thus the stomach and taste buds didn't get a treat.  What stopped me?  My commitment to PCP, team cookie monster and thinking there's gotta be a reason for progress on holding planks.  Wouldn't want that one tiny brownie to hinder my performance in the gym.  But actually, what stopped me, was that as I laid down to relax yesterday, I saw my hip bone protruding more than usual, and my stomach just lie flat.  Wow!  Look at you.  Hello hip bone!  I shall name you Norm and you and I will become great friends.

I'm tired today mostly because my body is tired.  Sore from the push-ups and chest dips from yesterday.  Sore from the pull-ups done in today's workout.  Knees are achy from the numerous bends they did yesterday and today.  Whaaaaa-Whaaaa-Whaaaaa.